The price of peace / payment due [Een dichter]

Eager to end,
kill, contradiction.
Coax counterlogic meticulously,
take no prisoners, nor allow the weed of doubt 
to grow, collaterals tolerable.

Shall no paradox live
compensatory measures taken
against them. Forever unlearned
their lessons remain as a bloodthirst
- though striking terror in its instigator
executioner and forthwith willess subject -

will have its way.

Mute, stillbirth [Een dichter]

Her feelings fetus-like
unborn, unfinished, unphrased,
in bad faith, ill-conceived

Via an almost infertile thoughtstream,
with nearly fruitless yet violent current,
it entered her

Forbidden Kingdom

Increasing pressure made her deliver
that which the flood procreated,
made its way and
she regained her formulation ability

voiced an answer (in silence)
to unasked questions.
Now to speak it out loud, or perhaps just one scream,
was all she desired and would forever onwards crave.

What ought to be a clamor
of decisive forte
was dead
and void.

An afterbirth of what-ifs
tasted bitterly.

Extraction [Een dichter]

My gut feeling

I ostracized
I demoted it to an expatriate

And
now it joins the foreign legion
which consequently attempts to conquer

My ratio

That pure residu
I attempted to extract, remain with

I am unsure if it is strong enough

Are you game? [Een dichter]

I need more time,
would want a word, but

the rules forbid us

I could forge but one attempt

Is this a spark or a seed,
is it destruction or foundation?

“Rien ne va plus”

An involuntary spasm /
conscientious objection

delayed decision

Did the both of us went all in?
I dare not look.

The wheel starts spinning.

Disengaging earth [Een dichter]

Your featherlight touch smacked my back
    Instigate ignition

The candlelight did blind my eyes
    Checking visuals

A passing summerbreeze scourged my skin
    Increase pressure

Hours passing at speeds of the minute hand
    Starting countdown





We left the world now, I believe
You're granting it your goodbye smile

Did I not feel enough or did I think too little?
Or is this, this cluttered haze, what is supposed to be 
manifest in a man's head / or body 
at this very hour?

 

 

 

Apologies [Een dichter]

Words I always felt were allies,
so oftentimes my only advocates.

But lexis’ presumed perfection, completeness,
failed me that night.

When I lost being able
To explicate

Both what held me back to speak
as well as
Why words were all I deemed an option.

I failed through fright
and fled.

Untitled [Een dichter]

I.

More complex than confined constriction
that is construed;

To cast my wish in flesh requires proficiency
in a language that feels foreign.

II.

To you, sculptors of your own desires

In the know, of significant skill,
graduates of proverbial grammar school;

With Bernini like vision, aware of what
the malleability of what is yours can be;

Sanctioned with a power
to breathe life, like God,

Masters of reality,
I call onto thee,
Teach me!

Alea iacta erit [Een dichter]

A trumpeter ascends the hill,
declares the conflict war.

A power-struggle thus begins,
axioms will shatter.

The challenged equilibrium,
once truth, and whole and nothing but,
becomes a battle’s centerpiece.

I am prepared to hold our ground

Despite her

soldiers wearing unobstructed reality
for uniforms.
Mine wear ideals, stone carved convictions
which are unmaneuverable.

Nothing but a Phyrric loss seems possible.

Untitled [Een dichter]

What they call chemistry,
I’d want in man-made
measured quantity.

The often praised mystery,
let me consume it unravelled
unburdened of unknowns.

It is too important
to know

How to differentiate these:
close distances unbridgeable,
potential of far fetched proximity.

 

 



2016
August
6The price of peace / payment due
July
24Mute, stillbirth
9Extraction
June
22Are you game?
14Disengaging earth
13Apologies
2Untitled
May
26Alea iacta erit
March
3Eigen werk
February
21Van God los
15Untitled
4Stripped
January
25Exchange rate
10Untitled


2014
December
27Haiku: Winterreise
13Machinery
November
22Untitled
September
21Stadsmagie
August
17Untitled
15De Toeschouwer
8Kussenspel
2Dure fles
July
25Untitled
22Untitled
June
30Tabula Rasa
22Plus est en moi
April
12Vreemdeling
February
5Orpheus / Opus 23 / in a-klein


2013
February
14Tantalus
10Nachtwandeling / liefdespad
10Wie is ze?
10Een wolkje


2011
October
5Untitled