Exchange rate [Een dichter]

I construct conscience castles
on undeveloped Hell’s hills

(The concrete one can buy
at the price of peace of mind of sanity
is really quite excellent these days)

Untitled [Een dichter]

My fountain pen is inked
I want to bleed my soul
Hope to start it flowing
Crave the sensational sense of some control

Being in my know
Knowledge of my how
or her’s or universe’s

To frighten the fear

with answer

Haiku: Winterreise [Een dichter]

Schubert wrote goodnight to
winter cold’s snow white beauty
played as best he could

Machinery [Een dichter]

I mimic a heart’s movement
being moved
In an idiosyncratic, externalized way,
mechanically

by mind power’s fuel
I demand, I command, me
my machinery, to progress

get going, a starting process
defined as to feel, to move
from a logically comprehendible,
binary like state: to feel or not to feel.

I move to, strive for
the latter
run as if for a tomorrow to come
a feeling needs to form

it my master, I surrendered,
to the self wanted, self induced
self created entity it is, to experience
feeling

(you).

untitled [Een dichter]

Ze vroeg me
haar te kleuren
Ik had slechts grijs
te bieden

Mijn grijs en
zij canvas

Toen wij ons schiepen
was ‘t echter rijker
dan de regenboog

Stadsmagie [Een dichter]

Zat ik
er naast
je onbekende mij
intrigeert 't verhaal
je las dat
keek niet aan
maar neer, op
toen je ging
van de tram
naar de straat
zonder mijn kans
je te groeten
naamloze echtgenote
uit mijn flitsfantasie

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untitled [Een dichter]

She asked for a reason: “Why do you seek, why do you always seek?” She probably expected that even for this question I’d have a considered answer, a reasonable thing to say, something that would originate from the domain of reason, an explanation, something logical, a simple thing, a rule compatible, not contradict with my existence / existing set of rules, the set that is the sum of my ego and some might perceive as a book easy to live by (or for, for that matter.) She was not entirely wrong to expect what she expected, to look for what she sought, I did expect to find an answer, myself, and hell, I wrote the rules by hand, know them by heart. I would probably answer that I just want to hold someone and be held, that I somehow need to be part as if unable to be whole solely on my own (merits). Yet I am quite uncertain whether that counts, whether it suffices as a valid answer, nice to say perhaps when trying to appear deep. An answer that seems deep at the surface, but in it’s attempted profoundness defies logic, as well as the parts of me I know and understand, somehow it seems unexplored territory. (Is it at all possible that it is never explored, that I never attempted to describe it, never endeavoured to put it on paper, due to the fact that it is physically impossible to describe the nature of a cavity?)

 

De Toeschouwer [Een dichter]

Zielswerelden

Kruisen in de schemering
naderen dichter
op weg naar het Walhalla
van niets (dan zijzelf)

Ze streven
naar een / als een
in ’n tijdloos vacuüm
door een streling gemarkeerd

Onmogelijk te begrijpen
laat staan te omschrijven
maar ook
een waardige taak, ‘k blijf
kijken, woorden zoeken

Kussenspel [Een dichter]

Dialectiek van subject en object
ondergaand het toegebrachte

Indachtig Isaac’s wet
wordt
ontvanger gever,
actor reactor

Wie ’t begon alsook waar het eindigt
twee zijn dader – maar stel die vraag
maar beter niet



2017
April
1590 fucking seconds
March
23Untitled
19Baptism


2016
December
3Spring
November
17Untitled
September
4Borst
August
6The price of peace / payment due
July
24Mute, stillbirth
9Extraction
June
22Are you game?
14Disengaging earth
13Apologies
2Untitled
May
26Alea iacta erit
March
3Eigen werk
February
21Van God los
15Untitled
4Stripped
January
25Exchange rate
10Untitled


2014
December
27Haiku: Winterreise
13Machinery
November
22Untitled
September
21Stadsmagie
August
17Untitled
15De Toeschouwer
8Kussenspel
2Dure fles
July
25Untitled
22Untitled
June
30Tabula Rasa
22Plus est en moi
April
12Vreemdeling
February
5Orpheus / Opus 23 / in a-klein


2013
February
14Tantalus
10Nachtwandeling / liefdespad
10Wie is ze?
10Een wolkje


2011
October
5Untitled